My First Month of Pregnancy

So.....my first month of pregnancy was kind of surreal. I didn't believe I was pregnant and I had cramps like I was going to start my period any day now. Once I peed on the pregnancy test and there were two lines I was freaking out. After all, I was scared and didn't know what to expect and wasn't planning on having children anytime soon. So as the days went by and the prayers for my period to come didn't seem to be doing any good I finally accepted that my period wasn't going to come. I still didn't accept or feel like I was pregnant. I just felt like a girl that wasn't having a period. I know that may sound horrible but I blame it on the pregnancy horomones that make you feel all kinds of different ways when you are pregnant. Because now I do feel pregnant and I am very happy that I am pregnant. Just getting through that first month of emotions and denial was a little tough. Anyone else ever feel like that in there first month? Where you don't accept that you are pregnant yet? Let me know. Leave a comment!

Finding Out.....

When I first found out that i was pregnant I was really scared. The pregnancy wasn't planned at all and I was going to school to get a degree in Graphic Design to hopefully start my career and then have kids. I was also engaged when I found out I was pregnant and decided that it would be best not to have a wedding and just go get married to my fiance' for health insurance purposes and to save money for the baby. I'm 25 and I never thought I would be ready for baby anytime soon but here in the last few months I feel ready. It's funny how things change as you go along. In the beginning I was really scared and in denial about being pregnant and now here I am 6 1/2 months pregnant and I'm comming to terms with it and I'm actually getting really excieted about having my little one. My parents were upset at first of course but now they too are really excited about having their first granchild. I know my parents just want what is best for me and wanted me to finish college and have a career and own a home before I got pregnant, but sometimes things just work out differently than you plan. I also have endometriosis and think sometimes maybe I got pregnant now and God gave me this child because in the future the endometriosis may cause me to not be able to have children. Life is funny and things always seem to work out, no matter how much of a disaster things seem to be in the moment.